Yahshua is Alive and Churchianity is Dead
Churchianity is a universal religion that speaks in an unknown tongue called churchinese. In America millions of people practice this religion. Most of the followers of this faith are sincere nice people who believe what they are doing on a routine basis is biblical. And some of the followers of this faith are mean and nasty people who believe what they are doing on a routine basis is biblical. But as you will see in this book the practitioners of churchianity are lost sheep and goats that are caught up in a labyrinth maze of traditions and rituals that are not based on the teaching and commandments of our Lord and Savior Yahshua Ha Masheac
Yahshua said I am the way truth and the life no man comes to the Father but by Me. {John 14:6}
Oh Watchman, Oh Watchman, Watchman on the wall-Secure the gates, sound the alarm. Gird up your loins with My Truth and blow the Trumpet. Tell My people, tell them I AM coming. Guard the gates and watch upon the wall for the enemy, for he
sneaks in at the gateways and tries to slide through the windows. Bar the gates; secure the windows, cry out in the streets & warn My people “I” Am coming – I Am coming” - don’t let the enemy rob , steal, kill, & destroy the hope, the joy, the life , the deliverance I have for my children. I give life abundant, hope &
joy – Tell My people – I Am coming.
I have placed arrows in your quiver & keys in your hand. Use them as I instruct, Find the mark , send the arrow – strike with the sword;Speak my Word & drive the enemy out the door. Then turn & speak life to that dead situation.
Oh watchman, Watchman , guard my gates – sound the Trumpet- keep my city until I come.
The weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds , casting down imaginations and anything the exalts itself above the knowledge of God , bringing every thought into the captivity of Yahshua Ha Masheac {2 Corinthians 10:4&5}
Before we get too far lets set the record straight about who my master is. His name is Yahshua many call him Jesus. Yahshua is the anointed one that is eternal, the ancient of days, the Holy One of Israel. The Creator of the Universe. The Word of God that was in the beginning.
Hear ye Oh Israel the lord our God is One
The father and Son are one.
I Am God and besides me there is no Savior
Yahshua is the first and the last, the Alef and the Tav
{ Isaiah 43:11}
Yahshua asked Simon who did he believe he was? When Simon told him that he was the Son of the Living God Yahshua told Simon that the Heavenly Father revealed that to him not Blood and flesh. And it is the same today, Our Father who art in Heaven must Reveal who the Son is to every individual in order for their to be a personal relationship.
Yahshua told Nicodemus that in order to see the kingdom of God that you must be born again. And to enter into the kingdom of God while living on earth you must do two things. Pick up your cross and follow Yahshua. In other words, like Yahshua you have to die by crucifying the flesh.
If my people who are called by my name would humble themselves and pray seek my face and turn from their wicked ways then I will hear from Heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal the land .{2Ch 7:14 }
Yes I believe that Yahshua is God. This revelation came to me in 2001 at the tender age of 35.My earliest memories of Yahshua are Sunday mornings at my Big Momma’s house waking up to gospel singing on the radio early in the morning. At seven or eight I remember memorizing my first and only bible verse.Let not your heart be troubled you believe in God also in me In my Father’s house are many mansions if it were not so I would have told you I go to prepare a place for you I will come again and receive you unto myself that where I am you may be also And where I go you know and the way you know.{ John 14: 1-4}Throughout my first 35 years I can look back now and remember this bible verse that I had committed to memory at vacation bible school in Moreno Valley California popping up in my thoughts at the weirdest times.
The seed that was planted in me as a boy was that I knew the way. Amen
Yahshua said I am the way truth and the life no man comes to the Father but by Me. {John 14:6}
My mom and dad taught me to pray before bed and before I eat and they would send me and my sister to Sunday school. But there was no bible study at home. We had a bible in the living room but it was just for show.One day while riding my bike I hit the front brakes and went over the front handle bars and landed head first on the streets. My head should have been split in two but I jumped up and ran in the house without a scratch.For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.
They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone. {Psalms 91 : 11&12}
At 18 years of age I went off to college where I was introduced to other religions philosophies and secret societies. The chaplain of my college not only taught the world religions class but he was also a member of one of the oldest black fraternities founded in America.
Learning so much on the streets and in the classroom about different faiths really challenged my beliefs. This mixed with living a wild party lifestyle of sex, drugs and hip hop music led to confusion. Now that I was 25 years old I wanted to know what the truth was. So I went to the public library and started with the Jewish Encyclopedia. That is where I discovered esoteric mysticism called kaballah. My family pastor had no idea what I was talking about when I questioned him about kaballah. I pledged a fraternity that had connections to freemasonry. And through their initiations and rituals I got even more into the mysteries. And finally during this same time period I began reading books by Elijah Muhammad.
In 1996 I met a witch in California while pursuing a music career. My manager used her as an accounting consultant or something. She had a big black cat that was walking around like it owned the place. The eyes were like human. She spoke of her days in a coven and after a couple of stories I asked why she gave up the craft. She said that one day her coven rose up a demon and could not send it back. I was like whoa. Then she told us that while being tormented by a demon she yelled out the name of Jesus. I was like why would a witch use the name of Jesus. She told me their was power in the name of Jesus.
This was the last place I thought I would be hearing about the power of the name of Jesus. Until this day I do not know what that was all about. But I know began studying even harder to find out what the truth was. My next move would be joining mosque 27 in L A. I signed up with the Nation of Islam while recording tracks with Sam Sneed of death row records. I was just doing a skit and some back ground stuff but it was my connection into the hip – hop industry. A week later I would total my car on Crenshaw blvd. I remember looking at the car and saying this is my sign to get off the west coast.
I came back to the east coast and landed in Hardeeville SC where I created my own record label with two young men from the area. While in Savannah Ga. I stumbled across a book store that had the most interesting knowledge I had ever studied up until this point in my life. One of the guys in the book store gave me a book called the Holy Tablets and I read it from cover to cover. I shared the info with a young man selling Nation of Islam newspapers and he got so angry. It was liked I had slapped his momma.
The knowledge that I had came across was the teachings of Dr. Malichi Z. York.
With all that I was learning I still was living a foul lifestyle and these faiths gave me no peace.
Then one night all would change when a gun altercation caused me to re consider all that I was doing…………
Summer 2000
Oh yes today was a good day, It is Friday and I am headed to the spot so we can kick off the smoke to you choke part 2 party. On the way home from work while listening to DJ dice law I begin to grin from ear to ear because he is spinning one of cross da traxxx songs “ wanna ride”. Cross da Traxxx entertainment is the record production company that started in Hardeeville SC in the year of 1996. When I pulled up in the yard police cars are everywhere. There was a gun altercation and instead of relaxing with a fat blunt this would be a night of pure drug drama.
While sitting in the backyard with a 12 gauge shotgun on my lap I had about 2 hours to really think about where I was at and how did I end up in this situation……..
I knew that night at 34 that if I survived I would never be in this situation again. Somehow I would change because at this point I had nothing to show for my 34 years on the planet. A couple days later I called my old boss in Va. and before I could say anything he said that God takes care of babies and fools and that I was not a baby. He gave me a job and I would be their a couple days later. While in VA I continued to produce hip hop music and study the occult.
Back in Va I worked 50 to 60 hours a week and chilled with my frat brothers after hours . My chapter brothers loved me and they were very supportive of my music.
I went to Newport News and bought a cd by Obadiah 1. This cd expressed most of my thoughts and philosophies. 3 months later I came from the club hung over and the next day I decided to not eat meat for 30 days. Half way into this fast I became free from my marijuana addiction. After a couple of days it was as though my eyes just popped open and I could see what was going on all around me. This was the first time that I realized that I was getting older. The streets and my party like a rock star lifestyle were killing me slowly but surely.
While walking through a building on campus one morning I read a flyer about play auditions. I was cast in a play with some very popular pop stars. It was a gospel play. I read the play and was like this thing is about me. Well I fell right in because I knew how to act like a christian. Rehearsal went from Nov- Dec then everybody took off for a Christmas break. I went back to Carolina with 300 cds that I had replicated in Va. I was still into my music the only difference was that I was off of marijuana. On New Years Eve 2001 I was at a local church having my car wash and the fella who washed my car invited me to church. I already knew that I was going to a party that night so I lied to him and told him I might come through. That night while head toward the party we stopped for gas and I sold one of my secular records to a young cashier and when she paid I felt shame for selling this foul product to this young lady. With the 10 dollars in my hand I asked her what she was doing tonight and she said she was going to church. I was like what church? She said the same church that I was invited to earlier. Well that was enough for me to turn my truck around and head back in town to attend Midnight watch service.
Soon as I stepped in the door people greeted me with my rap name. Whats up PhillyPhil? I sat in the back and I was enjoying the service until I attempted to take my jacket off. That when I realized that I had worn a shirt covered in dragons breathing fire. It was a wake up I call I finally realize that I was working for satan with my foul music and my perverted lifestyle. I covered back up in shame and sat through the rest of the service and all I heard was the pastor talking about family this and family that. At the end he pulled all the families up front and I was the only one sitting watching him pray over them. I could not wait to get out of their. When I got outside I took a deep breath and decided to do a gospel cd. It was the least I could do to put some balance in my life.
Well I traveled city to city and as soon as I could get back to my hotel room I would record gospel songs on my portable digital equipment. I already knew what hollywood was like but I did not expect the cut throat attitude to be in this genre that I was cast into.
The play Momma Dee’s girls started as serious play but by the time we were to Detroit it was a comedy. I was let go in Detroit. It was relief.
At this point I was still living a double life. I wanted to do the right thing but I was still very much filled with lust and still clinging to all the crazy philosophies that I had learned over the years.
The play went to Detroit and I was doing my best to stay cool. After the first night I was approached by a middle aged lady who took me to an after party. It really wasn’t a party it was a dope house. I recognized where I was at and quickly took my cash out of my wallet and put it in my sock. The next night I went to a club next to the hotel and after a couple beers a young lady took me riding in her van . She was smoking a joint while driving after riding around she came back to my room where we sat and talked for a while. I know my room mate was like this guy is crazy. But I let her hear a couple of my gospel tracks and we bounced. She was having problems with her husband and was trying to get out of her marriage. I was trying to comfrt her but not with the love of God. I thank God that we did not have sex. But that experience did cause me to lust and that lust would be fulfilled by another young lady that I met outside of the Hotel. For a few dollars this woman would fulfill my lustful need. Eventhough I was trying to follow Jesus I had no power over my lust and want for sexual gratification. Well brother Phil how does a man end up sleeping with a woman who sells her body? It does not happen overnight. The sexual appetite is awakened in a man through ,a lack of moral spiritual dicipline from home. through peer pressure from his friends and through all the different forms of media. Sex not only sells it kills.
1Co 6:15 Know ye not that your bodies are the members of Christ? Shall I then take the members of Christ, and make them the members of a harlot? God forbid.
1Co 6:16 What? know ye not that he which is joined to a harlot is one body? for two, saith he, shall be one flesh.
1Co 6:17 But he that is joined unto the Lord is one spirit.
1Co 6:18 Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body.
1Co 6:19 What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
1Co 6:20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s.
I picked up my truck in Va. And headed to Hardeeville SC. I made 30 copies of the cd I had made and gave them away. Everybody thought they were cool so I went to Wal- Mart to buy some blanks to make copies. That night a young lady asked me if I wanted to go to church. I bushed her off and kept stepping. I may have walked four steps and I heard something say ….How you going to be making gospel music and you don’t want to go to church? So I went to the church and it was church like I had never seen before. People were crying, speaking in tongues, and giving testimonies, and prophesying. I gave my testimony that night. And Pastor Garvin told me that I was a preacher. I doubted that. But she asked me to come back on Good Friday and do something for them. I thought she meant for me to sing. But when I got there the next Friday I realize that she wanted me to PREACH. I WAS SCARED TO DEATH. What was I going to say? I did not own a bible. I only knew one bible verse and a couple Christian songs. So I asked God to help me and He showed up. I did not what I was going to say but when I opened my mouth words just flowed out. I did not have to think about what to say next. At the end my mouth just shut and I could not say another word so I just sat down. They were so quiet I thought I had did something wrong. But after about 2 minutes of complete silence the pastor raised an offering and gave it to me. I stuffed all the envelopes into my music bag and went home. It was 2:30 in the morning. I and my mom counted the money and when I saw that I had 230 dollars …. I said to my Mom this is what I was going to do for the rest of my life. Little did I know the price I was going to pay for that decision to preach the Gospel of Jesus Christ….
Mat 16:24 Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me
Mat 16:25 For whosoever will save his life shall lose it: and whosoever will lose his life for my sake shall find it.
This became my first fellowship. I would just sit and listen. We would sing for 20 minutes before church started. If you wanted to give an offering their were several baskets up front. I remember one time the Pastor was speaking about homosexuality and in my mind I was thinking how happy I was that I had never been involved in homosexuality. At that very instant that I was thinking how cool I was she said “and masturbation is not of God either.” I could have crawled under my chair. That was a wake up call for me about the stronghold of perversion.
Many people, who are caught up in sexually perverted lifestyles, as I was, want you to point out in the bible where it says that they should not do this and that. Example THOU SHALL NOT COMMIT MASTURBATION. Thou shall not have anal and oral sex with anyone. Thou shall not sleep with your pets. Grown men and women should never have sex with little boys and or girls. To those that believe that the bible is true let’s go to the root and then we will deal with the fruit.
Rom 1:24 Wherefore God also gave them up to uncleanness through the lusts of their own hearts, to dishonor their own bodies between themselves:
Rom 1:25 Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshiped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed forever. Amen.
Rom 1:26 For this cause God gave them up unto vile affections: for even their women did change the natural use into that which is against nature:
Rom 1:27 And likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust one toward another; men with men working that which is unseemly, and receiving in themselves that recompense of their error which was meet.
Rom 1:28 And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient;
Rom 1:29 Being filled with all unrighteousness, fornication, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, debate, deceit, malignity; whisperers,
Rom 1:30 Backbiters, haters of God, despiteful, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents,
Rom 1:31 Without understanding, covenant breakers, without natural affection, implacable, unmerciful:
Rom 1:32 Who knowing the judgment of God, that they which commit such things are worthy of death, not only do the same, but have pleasure in them that do them.
And to those who don’t believe the bible is true. Yahshua loves you so much that he died on Golgotha and shed his precious blood for you and me. No need to debate because I know you are tired of arguing. Invite him into your heart and He will help you in areas that you have no control over and or have lost control over.
The weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty through God to the pulling down of strongholds , casting down imaginations and anything the exalts itself above the knowledge of God , bringing every thought into the captivity of Yahshua Ha Masheac {2 Corinthians 10:4&5}
I BELIEVE THAT CHILDREN ARE OUR FUTURE
TEACH THEM THE WORD THAT JESUS IS THE WAY
SHOW THEM ALL THE BEAUTY GOD HAS INSIDE
BIND UP THAT SPIRIT OF PRIDE MAKE IT EASIER
LET THE CHILDRENS LAUGHTER REMINDS US HOW WE NEED TO BE
I DECIDED LONG AGO ONLY TO WALK IN JESUS CHRIST’S SHADOW
IF I FAIL IF I SUCCEED AT LEAST I LIVED AS I BELIEVED
NO MATTER WHAT THE WORLD TAKES FROM ME
IN JESUS CHRIST I HAVE LIBERTY
BECAUSE THE GREATEST LOVE OF ALL IS HAPPENNING TO ME
GOD GAVE HIS ONLY SON
THIS IS THE GREATEST LOVE OF ALL
I would be at this church for two weeks. In that short period of time these people showed me love . I knew I was slowly changing. I went to Atlanta to participate in the G.A.N.G. Conference 2001 at Brother Eddie Long’s church. I took about 20 cds’ and sold them on the first day in the lobby. I made enough to pay for a cheap hotel room. I sat my music equipment up in the Cafeteria where all the merchandisers were set up. I was singing and sharing what God hade done for me with any one who would listen. A young man borrowed my Source magazine. And when he gave it back several hours later he told me that his pastor wanted to eat lunch with me. I was like cool. When I first saw him I saw an image of a gangster with rings on every finger. But when I looked again it was just a young man in a suit sitting down at a cafeteria lunch table. I thought I was having a weed flash back. After our conversation he invited me to New York City to work with his choir. I agreed immediately. I came to Atlanta looking to get into something. I walked outside and could hear the speaker from the main building preaching about fraternity branding. I was very interested since I was branded all over my body with Omega brands. After his sermon I walked up to this Minister, Brother Terrell Murphy and I could see the big horseshoe brand on his arm. How could I tell this Man of God that I was in the same Fraternity? I was not ready to hear anything negative about the organization that held a very special dear and secretive place in my heart. So I just gave him my cd and kept it moving.
Before we began our journey to New York City we made a stop at Brother Creflo Dollar’s church to drop off some Jesus T-shirts. In the parking lot a brother ask me to pull out my sword. I was like what are you talking about. He said where is your bible? I was like I don’t have one. He shouted nicely how you going to sing gospel music and you don’t have a bible? I just shrugged my shoulders. But I knew in my Heart that I was saved so I did not worry about what he had said. But it did make me think….
I knew that something was off in the beginning because they had 6 people in a 7 passenger van and no one jumped in the truck with me to help me drive. We left Atlanta around 11 o’clock at night after being up all day for the last day of the gang conference 2001. I was in my truck praying and listening to gospel music all the way. We arrived in New York at 3:30 pm and hit traffic going to Long Island to the pastor’s house. They dropped him off and did not ask me in, to use the bathroom. I just chilled and kept a smile on my face. Finally we get to the church in Jamaica Queens at about 8 pm. And I just sat in the back of my truck. Around 10 a group of guys showed up and were like getting ready to do something. I thought they maybe having a late Friday night service. They told me they were going to the movies. The movies? I was like what have I done got myself into? They let me clean up in the basement of the church. Our first stop was the Chinese food spot the Pastor paid for everybody’s food to go. We go to the theatre walk right pass the ushers with no tickets and went in the theatre. We sat down and started tearing up that Chinese food. The movie started and to my shock WE WERE ABOUT TO VIEW A MOVIE CALLED FAST AND FURIOUS. I was so sleepy I barely saw the first scene.
Now it is about 2 am and I was put with the co-pastor. We get to his house and instead of me having a bedroom. I was given some sheets and the living room couch. The pastor did say if I take care of your room and board would I come so I could not complain.
Psalms 37:23 The steps of a good man are odered by YHWH and he delighted in his way.
I just sucked it up like a soldier and figured that God had something for me in this city.
My first week in New York was cool. The church was young and single people made up the majority of the congregation. I could tell that leadership kept a tight grip on all the members. At first I did not care because I was not a member. I was just their on assignment . I met the choir that I was to work with and off the rip I discerned the spirits that were controlling them. I told the co-pastor that they were full of pride and arrogance . He came back at me and told me that he wanted me to talk to them. I was like that is the Pastor’s job to deal with his choir’s attitude. After that they helped me adjust to the city and basically left me alone. They gave me my first bible . It was a little king James version of the Holy Bible. I would read a little at first to go to sleep at night. I started with the red letters .
I then met the sound man for the church , Sean Slaughter . Sean was always on the road touring doing gospel rap and sound engineering. He had the same background as me . Sean came off the road to minister at the church through song. He was introduced to me and after listening to some of my music he invited me on stage with him to do a remix of one of his songs. At that same event I can remember asking the young people to raise their hands if they had ever been to the clinic for sexually transmitted diseases. I looked over the group and many young people raised their hands. America needs Yahshua more than ever.
After a week I realized that I had to get a job to meet my needs. My first gig was at the Apollo in harlem. I Knew the keyboard player from the house band he got me a part time gig on the front door. Then I landed full time a/v tech job at the Marriott hotel in Manhatten. I was on my way I could not believe it. Then bam Sept 11 2001. The hotel business went belly up. I had to scramble because my truck payment was 3 months behind. By October I would be working everyday as a New York city public school sub teacher. I also was working part time as a programmer at the Queens public television studio. All of the television station were out that first week after the bombing. So one day I found myself staring at the television set. could hear some preachers talking but I could barely see their faces . I made out the local phone number at the bottom and called the church. The man asked me to come to the revival…..to be continued
